Lovely, lovely friend,
Current state of affairs: I’m on an airplane headed toward the mountains.
And I am feeling all-of-the vulnerable.
So — Let’s talk about real life. Real, real life.
One week ago, my boyfriend of seven years and I, decided to break up. ie: go separate way, no longer do life together, be honest with one another about what we each wanted.
While this will always be the best thing we could have ever done for one another and while this relationship has been — by far — the greatest learning experience of my life, it’s sad as hell. Sad as fucking hell…
Sometimes we have to go through seasons of shedding — where the evidence/feelings/pressure adds up and the truth becomes undeniable.
Either you get honest about the job/school/partnership/marriage… or life gets honest for you until you do.
So, let’s settle this now.
When something is removed, when something crazy shows up, and when life makes no effing sense, know this:
It’s not happening to you. It’s happening mother effing for you.
Rejection is protection. God is on your side. The Universe has your back. It’s all working out in your favor.
You are being guided. Your prayers are being answered through this experience. What will hold you back, has to fall away.
Skin is being shed. You no longer fit inside a cocoon. Your wings are longing to spread. It’s time to go bigger.
You are making room for something more fitting.
When you are oriented to your ultimate personal development and growth, your next steps may be given in this way.
That doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. That doesn’t mean you won’t need to cry and analyze and vent to five friends and eat some ice cream. Do all of that.
Look at the experience. Look at it. All of it.
Feel all of your feelings. FEEL them all.
Be willing to observe your behavior. Tell yourself the truth about your fears.
What in you attracted this mismatch? What fears does this bring up in you? What are you afraid this experience means about you and your life? What limiting beliefs are coming to life through this that need some adjusting? (<– Journal that shit out)
Acknowledge that as you grow/change/raise your vibration, things that are no longer an energetic match for your truest desires, won’t fit into your life.
And even when you know that what is happening is divine, it is easy to slip into victim mode.
Rise above. Move forward. Determine to learn the lesson. Know that you will now live and walk out your truth in a greater and more unapologetic way. Thank you, God.
You have shit to do, sister. You will now be required to grieve the loss and move the fuck on.
I recorded today’s vlog while traveling through Nice, France when a different type of relationship had ended.
And in that crazy synchronistic way, this vlog is speaking to me again today today.
Do you relate to this?! Comment below.